Hey people I know I haven't blogged in ages. I'm really sorry, the last few weeks have been really tough on me. I thought attachment was the best bet to get my 4.0 for gpa. As I came to realise, working as Citibank and getting that A grade is twice as hard as I thought.

Getting a strict LO didn't help my cause, I get average B+ for what I think were A reports. And if you think company assesment was a sure A, think again, I got a C. Wow, I was shocked beyond words. I didn't think I deserve a C. I was thinking, yea there goes my future, if I don't get 4.0, bye bye Singapore. Most people would love to leave here asap. I used to think that way as well, but now I don't really want to.

So while feeling so down and demoralised over all these, I heard a song on my ipod. I was about to skip it when I decided lets just listen. It spoke to me, things that I should have been doing for the last few mths or years of my life and that is to surrender everything to God. For a person like me, I always want to be sure of outcomes, of things I do. But now I'm kinda lost. I have my goal but I really do not know how to reach it anymore. Things dont seem to go the way I planned.

So the song goes, "All my ambitions, hopes and plans, I surrender these, onto your hands."

After that, I realised, thats all I needed to do.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006